Finished September strong. Everyday is a battle against the darkness and demons, but please remember, if you are battling that darkness and those demons, please reach out to a trusted friend or professionals in your area; they can help. Suicide doesn\'t have to be the answer to the battle.

Starting October 1st, I will no longer be pushing to hit my walking goal. Instead, I am going to be more focused on getting back to the gym and working on strength training and toning. Walking, although great at maintaining my weight, is doing nothing to help me lose it. This is something I have noticed in the last few months that I have stepped away from the gym. I lost more weight and felt better after a good hour long workout than walking the same amount of time. My body just doesn\'t respond to things the way it should and I need to do what is best for me.

This goal here, I should be proud of it. And I am. But it has come with a lot of trials the last couple of weeks. And as a result of these trials, I have waited to the last hour to get my steps in. I have self sabotaged my fitness goals. And I have wanted to give up, completely and utterly. But I didn\'t, and I should be proud of that. I really, really should be.